I don't think I could be any happier that it's almost quitting time on a Friday.

A few co-workers, the boss and I had a meeting this afternoon with an outside consulting group about needed improvements to our database.  The two representatives were not exactly professional, but I thought they raised a few good points about short-term and long-term options for this project.  The boss likes the company, but really did not like the reps.  Anyway, the reps were throwing IT terminology at us and describing Web-based databases and MySQL and the like, stuff about which I have absolutely no clue. 

N keeps saying that this whole database issue isn't a huge deal, but that's easy to say when you've dealt with a transition like this before.  I haven't, and I'm not exactly what you'd call tech-savvy.  Sure, I can navigate my way through computer programs and whatnot better than some of the people in this office, but I'm far from being an expert.  The concept of a Web-based database that we are leaning towards still has me a bit befuddled, which is frustrating because I know that L (the Asst. Director, who's been on vacation for the past two weeks) is going to come back into the office on Monday and expect me to know what's going on.  I'm almost tempted to just say, "Look, I don't know.  I've had very limited exposure to any sort of database, so I'm not the best person to ask what direction we should go toward.  Ask N."

Mrr.  This, plus the fact that I found out yesterday that the raise I had assumed I'd get after my probation period ended (back in mid-May) won't be effective until the next calendar year (which SUCKS because I need the raise NOW), has put me in a pretty sour mood.  But I guess on the flip side, it's made me even more determined to find another job.  I called my mom yesterday after I found out about the non-raise, and she's now completely on my side about quitting.  Originally, she wanted me to stick it out for at least a year.  So now I don't feel so bad about that.

Anyway, whatever.  It's 4:30 and I'm going to leave and put all thought of this organization out of my head for the next two days and just enjoy the weekend.

I feel:  defeated